September 18th

Joshua William Thornton 1984-2010

DEATH IS NOTHING AT ALL

Death is nothing at all.

It does not count.

I have only slipped away into the next room.

Nothing has happened.

Everything remains exactly as it was.

I am I, and you are you,

and the old life that we lived so fondly together is untouched, unchanged.

Whatever we were to each other, that we are still.

Call me by the old familiar name.

Speak of me in the easy way which you always used.

Put no difference into your tone.

Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow.

Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes that we enjoyed together.

Play, smile, think of me, pray for me.

Let my name be ever the household word that it always was.

Let it be spoken without an effort, without the ghost of a shadow upon it.

Life means all that it ever meant.

It is the same as it ever was.

There is absolute and unbroken continuity.

What is this death but a negligible accident?

Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight?

I am but waiting for you, for an interval, 

somewhere very near,

just round the corner.

All is well.

Nothing is hurt; nothing is lost.

One brief moment and all will be as it was before.

How we shall laugh at the trouble of parting when we meet again!

--HENRY SCOTT-HOLLAND

In my heart I feel this(the poem) to be true, but in reality it's hard.  Every year when the season begins to change my body feels it before I realize why I'm feeling all the feels. And then it registers.  The date.  The time. It was a beautiful, crisp September morning with clear blue skies. I was cleaning the house when I got the phone call.  Those memories and involuntary bodily reactions will never leave.  I can go there in an instant.  Time eases the sting, but the loss is still felt. The emptiness is still there. Will it ever completely go away.  No(not completely). We adapt.  We cope. We feel the grief. We live and hopefully have learned a few things with our renewed perspective of living a life without those we love the most physically here with us.  

I have learned to appreciate the time I have, living it to the fullest.

Staying true to myself

Listening more

Learning all I can, and 

Loving unconditionally.

💗Until we meet again, My Joshy💗